I think I hear the clock ticking. I thought it was the clock ticking for the house to go into foreclosure, but it turns out to be something different. It’s the clock ticking for change, for me personally if I will change. God’s graciously give me ample time to act, but that time will soon be over. I kept hoping and praying to make ends meet before it came to this, but God had a different plan. If I got work in time to pay things down, this experience wouldn’t have any weight, besides me having a moderately bruised ego and bottom-line, I’d come out unscathed…unchanged. This was not to be.
God has supplied amply. Food showing up at my door every week, money showing up just as I spent my last dime, the lights did go out last week because I couldn’t pay the electric bill, but I was blessed by a stranger there as well. I’ve witnessed God’s provision over and over, otherwise, there’s no way anyone would be able to read this, but God is more than a provider. Here’s the conversation we keep having
Me: God please take care of my family. Please pay our bills, let find work etc…
God: Do you want to keep your house?
Me: Yes.
God: Your know you’re going to have to lay everything down, and give glory to Me for this work right?
Me: Yeah, sure
God: You’re going to have to lay down your pride and let the world know your drowning, and that there’s nothing you can do to stop it.
Me: (silence)
God: Well?
Me: No other way?
God: No other way.
Me: Why again?
God: So that your story will be a testimony to my provision, and that you will learn to fight for your family, but to fight with strength that is not your own.
If you feel lead please give what you can, as we prayerfully get through this time.
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